Apr 6

Adventures in Gymland part 3

6 April

Two workouts down since the last post, plus a cardio day (badminton with my husband) and things are going better. #1 thing that has helped: my husband working out with me. I still don’t particularly enjoy the act of working out, but having him there just to talk to really makes it more enjoyable.  #2 thing that has helped is the not being at the regular gym I go to. I really feel self-conscious in my regular gym, but not so much in this one. Pity I have to go back to the other one at some point,. Oh well, I will just have to get over it like other people have to.

The workout is getting easier, I am already looking forward to the day that the personal trainer changes/advances my program. What I am not looking forward to is running. Running terrifies me, but if I am going to survive the zombie apocalypse, I will just have to learn to do it properly won’t I? In all seriousness though, running has lots of benefits, and I would like to be able to keep up with my husband. He is definitely more fit than I am, and for some reason I feel bad about that. I want to be the kind of partner that can go on adventures without needing “special accommodations”. I just want to live a fit lifestyle, be happy, and be able to see my kids (grand kids, and great-grand kids, ‘cause why not?) grow up healthy. I want to be a good example. I am lucky that I have a very supportive significant other, who is also working on their fitness level. We are looking towards the same goals, and have the same pitfalls as each other. That last bit though can be a struggle.

For anyone else out there looking to live healthier, longer, and happier: the first step is to clean up your eating. Its imperative that this happens first. Take out the processed foods, take out the grease, and the high, empty calorie foods, then just eat cleanly. This can be difficult, goodness knows it can be really hard for me (us) to stay away from it all (mostly ice cream and pizza). Point is to clean it up as much as possible; its OK to have an off day here and there. The problem lies when your off days become equal to or more than your normal days. One good thing to do is to make sure that your off days don’t go over your calorie limit either. Use this (http://www.bmi-calculator.net/bmr-calculator/) to calculate a basic BMR, from there you can figure out what you need as a caloric intake for each day.

For me, this all was/is the hardest step. I crave crap food all of the time. I am still learning to have willpower, I am lucky that I have someone helping me gain that power over myself.

Anyways, until next time.  

Apr 3
Apr 3



that feeling you get when you’re angry


Apr 3
Apr 1










I never usually laugh at these, but I literally just lost it


Tears are streaming down my face oh my god


"I am getting fisted right now" omfg



(Source: padfootvioletstilinski)



A wild MACHAMP appeared!

I tried to scroll past this but its too damn clever



A wild MACHAMP appeared!


I tried to scroll past this but its too damn clever

Adventures in Gymland part 2

March 26th written on the 27th

3rd time through the program. It was easier to do, but so much harder for me to get excited to do it. My schedule is changing a bit for the next month, and I am afraid that I won’t want to go exercise and will try to not go. I really need to, I can already feel some of the benefits of the exercise.
As I said, the workout itself was easier, I was able to complete everything, BARELY, but I did it. It helps that this week I am not nearly as exhausted as I was last week going into the workout.

One thing that really helped this week was that I ran into a friend of mine in the gym. He’s a really nice guy, and it helped that I had a friendly face even though we weren’t actually working out together.

Another thing that helped was noticing what other people were doing wrong. Sounds mean, but I was shocked at how little people know about working out effectively, efficiently, and safely.

  • When you fail (can’t do anymore reps), you stop. You are done with that exercise. You will only do damage if you continue. If you only had a small number of reps, consider lowering the weight next time and doing more reps until that gets easy and you aren’t failing after 3 sets of 12 reps.
  • You should only be taking a 30 sec to 1 min break between sets. If you need more time, you’re done with that exercise. Your muscles get too cold with too much time between sets.
  • Make sure you warm up, and stay warmed up during your weightlifting exercises (yes, even using the machines).  
  • Do compound exercises, don’t do exercises that target one muscle (like a bicep curl). Compound exercises keep everything growing together, proportionally. You work out more muscles with one move and therefore you can be economical with your exertion. Plus, its safer.

Disclaimer: If you are in a program that requires anything different to the above points, do what you’re doing. This is just a general guideline.

I still don’t particularly feel comfortable in the gym. For me, it’s a real blow to my self-esteem to be here. I feel disgusting and ugly, and out of shape, and mostly like I don’t belong. Facts are, I am out of shape, and I probably don’t belong for the sheer fact that I dislike doing it. I want to like it, and I want to be a more able bodied person. Building muscle around my joints will/is helping them in the long term. I know this because I have felt the difference in my knees since I started with the strength training exercises with the physio.  

For reference, In august of 2012 I was at 250 lbs, 113 kg, at 5’4”. I am now around 75kg, 160 lbs, same height.

Disclaimer: exercise alone does not equal a healthy body, or a recipe for weight loss, you must eat well and yes, account for all of the calories you are eating, in EVERYTHING you consume.

Adventures in Gymland part 1

I think I am going to start a series on here about my journey with the gym… IDK if any of you care, but I feel like I will spill out my guts after my gym days every once in a while. See, the thing is, I have joint problems and I finally have been able to get help via NHS wonderfulness. They gave me a physio, who was able to refer me to a program where I get a personal trainer who basically tells me what to do for the next 5 weeks, then we check in.  A couple points of reference for this series of mostly ranting:

1) I hate going to the gym, always have, I don’t like the feeling of judgement.
2) I don’t really enjoy getting sweaty.
3) I have spent most of my life in the overweight- morbidly obese range and I got fucking tired of it because I felt gross, tired, and sick all of the time.
4) This is mostly for me, but IF you get something out of it, great! If not, that’s cool too, just keep scrolling.

This first one is backdated to the 19th of March my second day doing the prescribed workout, besides cardio days.

That was torture, pure torture. There are some things that could have definitely made that a more pleasant experience:

  • Having someone in the gym area that I know
  • Less conventionally attractive people
  • Less people looking like they’re trying to attract mates
  • Less people (girls especially) dressing like whores to work out
  • Less people sitting on equipment texting for 5 minutes just to get off of it without doing anything
  • Less people trying to outdo each other
  • Less intimidating people
  • Less people
  • More signs on equipment
  • More people helping each other out

I sort of hate this gym right now. You either see people who are really not doing anything, or people who are super excited to be using everything. I’d like to see more people like me who are struggling but who are still plodding along.

That was the hardest workout of my life, and I didn’t even finish everything! I couldn’t. I was short a couple of reps on the chest press and then, on both bike sections, I had to fight to not give up after 3 minutes. I, at least, pushed myself to 9 and 8 minutes but that’s all I had in me. I’ve had a headache since I got here, and I’m so tired and weak feeling. I really need a rest day where I walk less than 5 miles… Maybe I will get that Saturday??? Lol. Doubt it.

It’s only the second time I’ve worked through the program, and there is already a part of me ready to give up because its hard and I felt uncomfortable in the weights area… I really haven’t gotten used to the other area of the gym yet, and now all of the macho-ism, cleavage baring, checking each other out in the mirror crap? I hate people.

I’m just feeling down on myself, I’ll keep going with it because I am MORE tired of “I can’t” and “it’s too hard!” Those 2 phrases have begun to sicken me, and I WON’T LET THEM HOLD ME BACK ANYMORE!

Still feel like death though.

when someone says "let it go" in their sentence

  • Friend: and i just told them to let it go-
  • Me: ....
  • Friend: -oh gosh oh gosh no.
  • Me: ..........
  • Friend: I said it didn't I? I said it-
  • Me: .....!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • Friend: please have mercy-
  • Friend: WHY






This makes me so fucking happy


I tried really hard to scroll past this but oh mY GOSH YHE CUTENESS DRAGGED ME BACK